Sweetheart

Slowly but surely,
I am reclaiming the person I used to be.
I’m regaining my interests:
one show we used to watch together,
two video games you’d watch me play,
four Youtubers we’d reference at any moment,
nine bands that were ours,
the entirety of music theory.
I’m reclaiming my body:
lipstick dark enough to leave a stain,
clothes that are comfy, not cute,
the healthy weight I’ve finally obtained,
the colours I choose to decorate with,
the concept that I am more than just “hot.”
I’m reclaiming my emotions:
my anger,
my excitement,
my sadness,
my happiness,
my anxiety.
I’m reclaiming myself:
my loud opinions,
the excitement for what I love,
my obliviousness to the world around me,
the kindness I try my best to show,
my firm beliefs.
It may be a slow process,
but I’m finally back
to the way I was meant to be.